Udenfor-mig-selv

føler mig trådt på
kroniskt frustreret
til rotterne
fucked
 og behandlet som skidt
jeg længes
Men den personlige ambivalens ..-
jeg er truly fucked.


en kulde smyger sig op ad min krop .
Hvad er det egentlig jeg forestillede mig?
Jeg synes der var så meget. Hvor blev det hele af?


Jeg er perfekt ..
- udenfor migselv
jeg har det godt
men jeg er ikke glad
det hele blev som jeg ville
- jeg er ikke glad

selvtilliden er ekspanderende
og jeg er ikke glad
men hvorfor?
..er jeg ikke glad?

the loop of life

endnu en gang
viser min utilstrækkelighed
mit indre kaos
og mine modstridende konflikter sig
at resultere i kompromisløs og forståelig utilfredshed
jeg vil, jeg kan
jeg vil ikke, jeg kan ikke


der er en dybere mening med sætningen
"the man in charge is the man who seizes life"

in my everyday-hibernate
i dwell
and slumber too deeply - yet awake
making clever interpretations
resulting in
a slow
suffocation
and exhaustion
noise in my head
the noise in my head

the lack of activity
leads to lack of inspiration
lack of change
i tire myself
get in charge!

Work, Buy, Consume, Die

"go to work, send your kids to school

follow fashion, act normal
walk on the pavements, watch T.V.
save for your old age, obey the law
Repeat after me: I am free"


Graffiti on Philip St, Bedminster, Bristol, UK


Why do women starve themselves to the point of anorexia? Why do people pay $100 for a pair of nike trainers which cost less than $1 to make? Why does my timex cost 1/10th of a rolex, yet it tells the same time? Why do girls as young as 10 feel the need to cake themselves in make-up and wear slutty clothes? How did something as ridiculous as pokemon catch on as a fad?

Its all about status. Generally, if you want the hot wife, fast car and big paycheck you gotta do things a certain way. Whether you see that as right or wrong its just the way things are.


"A human can very well do what he wants, but cannot will what he wants.” - Albert Einstein

- You're unique, just like everybody

Talent

Tak til røde, blev jeg introduceret til den vildeste 'beatboxer' i fredags. Selvom det ikke er den slags musik jeg hører normalt, greb det mig lige med det samme. Han er virkelig talentfuld.

Jeg tror at man vil finde det meget interessant at høre i hvert fald et par minutter af den her video. Overvej, når først han er kommet i gang, at det hele er hans stemme. Godt nok bruger han en sit effect-board, men lydene kommer bare fra hans mund.



The words in my mind that i see
Flow out of me easily
So easily that my mind is free
To blaze up your mind with my fantasy
Cos when i get on this mic
I’m flowing so awfully tight,
So awfully tight that my rhymes are like
The claw of a tiger that’s ready to strike

Jeg er fucking betaget.

"All sounds on the Album have been created with his voice using a Roland Effects & loop pedal."

Deceivance

På chatrlt den anden dag, havde jeg en virkelig lang samtale med en nice svensker. Jeg bildte ham ind at jeg var amerikaner, og udspurgte ham om hvor godt Danmark og Norge var i forhold til sverige, osv. (han sagde btw at danskere var lidt ligesom amerikanere, fede og drak meget :D) Han troede selvfølgelig på mig hele vejen igennem. Følelsen af at få nogen til at stole blindt på én, uden at det er alvorligt selvfølgelig, er noget jeg aldrig rigtig har prøvet før. det var spændende og gav en eller anden form for 'magt'. Senere fandt jeg den følgende konversation som en anden gut har lavet. Rimeligt underholdende. Og dog skræmmende. Skræmmende dygtigt faktisk. Det er helt uhyggeligt som nogle mennesker kan spille skuespil, også i hverdagen. nogle mennesker på min alder kan ved hjælp af skuespil spille helt andre personer end de er. DE kan lyve uden at reagere det mindste på det selv, og lukke det værste lort ud, og stadig holde masken. det misunder jeg. det kan jeg slet ikke. jeg kan aldrig tage mig selv seriøst når jeg prøver, jeg finder det for komisk, og desuden hader jeg tanken om at opbygge falsk tillid hos mine venner. vil de så kunne stole på mig igen når det gælder?
Anyways, det er et stærkt 'tool', og hvis jeg mestrede det ville jeg udnytte det rigtig godt :D

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
You: Heya
Stranger: hi
You: Look, I need a favour.
You: You any good at thinking fast?
Stranger: yeah
You: Well then, I've got a biiig bottle of amphenadryl pills here, for my body weight 12 should be enough to cause the amino acids to break down and trigger cardiac arrest.
You: Death will be over in a matter of minutes, and the chance of an intervention is low.
You: Give me one good reason not to down the whole fucking bottle.
Stranger: i don't know
You: Come on man, you said you were quick.
Stranger: don't do it
You: I need reasons, hurry mate.
Stranger: You have so much to live for!!!
You: You don't know me, I have very little. Try again.
Stranger: if you do it people will miss you
You: Yeah, my dealer maybe. Haha!
Stranger: don't fucking do it
You: Look, you suck at this. I think we should finish up here.
Stranger: no
You: Whelp, there's one downed. Hey, let's turn this into a game! The pills take about 15 minutes to kick in anyway
Stranger: i am so sorry
You: Maybe I should insert them rectally...? It'd be quicker but the autopsy would be a bit embarassing! What do youy think?
You: Two downed.
Stranger: don't take any more
You: Haha, oh god I'm tremblinhng.
You: aaaaaand that's three! What's your name by the way?
Stranger: is there any one with you
You: Nope, they'd just try any stop me
Stranger: beni
You: That's a pretty name Beni, nice to meet you. I'm Maria.
Stranger: where are u from
You: I'm an English girl!
You: Fuck it, I'm going for rectal. Be right back.
Stranger: don't do it
Stranger: are you ok
You: You a drinker, Beni?
You: You know, like drink alcohol a lot?
Your conversational partner has disconnected.



(teksten er ikke skrevet af mig :))

On the political account

Consider this



* 67 percent of Republicans (and 40 percent of Americans overall) believe that Obama is a socialist.

* 57 percent of Republicans (32 percent overall) believe that Obama is a Muslim

* 45 percent of Republicans (25 percent overall) agree with the Birthers in their belief that Obama was "not born in the United States and so is not eligible to be president"

* 38 percent of Republicans (20 percent overall) say that Obama is "doing many of the things that Hitler did"

* Scariest of all, 24 percent of Republicans (14 percent overall) say that Obama "may be the Antichrist."

Source: http://www.thedailybeast.com/

What is the human mind?

Placebo:A study was made in England in 1987 with patients visiting a clinic because they were suffering from a wide range of illnesses. The patients were randomly assigned to two groups. In the first group, the patients were given positive conditioning. They were confident in the diagnosis and positive in the prognosis. In the second group the doctor was unsure and pessimistic. The study showed that 64% of patients in the first group became better within two weeks, while only 39% of those in the second group were better for the same period.

The placebo effect begets hope while the nocebo effect begets hopelessness, fear and anxiety. A sense of negativity increases susceptibility to illness and reduces the healing ability of the body. Physicians have known this since ancient times. However, with the mind being relegated to non-existence, modern physicians tend to treat their patients as if they are robots.



How fucked up is our mind today?